okayi am not curred i am still have a crush on him, even stronger, .... went without with him for the second time tonight i just enjoy talking to him i feel like i never want to stop talking and asking him, yet i feel he thinks that i am a bit young, and not to mention he is still not well ready to date, at least he says so, but i do believe him, he is an honest and i dont think he would lie to me, i want to come out, not come out of the closet, i am already out of that but i want to come out to him in the sense i want to confess my feelings, but i am afraid to knowing that one he is not ready that two i will scare him off and loose the possibility of a great friend in a country like this, this is actually the thing i mostly i am afraid of....
today as we finished the movie had dinner, after we ordered the bill, we stayed for a while after the bill until the resturant was closing, after we got to my car in the parking lot i drove him to his car which was like 30 meters away and after i did we stayed in my car for another 15 minutes just talking and i felt i saw his hand on the door handle a couple of times but everytime he seems to be more interested in staying more to talk and to me guys that is highest form of romanticism even if he didnt mean it in that way but to me romanticism is more about the small things like this.... and the more he does it the more i like him but now as i am sure i like him and i want date him but the friendship prospect is also there, fuck i dont know i am jsut confused i mean i know what i want i just dont know how to deal with it and i am confused about how would he deal with it....
you know what i think would be funny if we hook up a month from now and he reads this later.. or if we dont hook up and he reads this
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You need to enjoy what you feeling also be carefull that you dont get really badly hurt..........Its so hard cause Dubai is a place where you can feel like a visitor even if you living there, people like to keep to their clans if you see a group its cause they from the same town or work for the same group...........gee wizz its hard but you need to belive in yourself and make the attempt to make other friends that will help you to break loose from him.......you write well well keep it up and dont giveup on you......
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