20 Something: On Gaydar/Manjam and my vow to Celibacy

wow i havent blogged since valentines day, so why i am back, where was i, i remember i had a succuesful a blog with loads of post on weekly basis

i guess stopped blogging as my life got really busy with work and alot of that, and even know its still fucked with work but i am learnging how to manage my time better now,

in the past 8 month i could say i have had alot of one night stands, and guys that i dated for a period of weeks each and did i mention that i moved to dubai, so that would include more drunken nights than the ones i had in saudi, but i think with in these 8 months i have changed, might even consider myself have a part of me matured if thats even possible.

so what is todays topic its gaydar and manjam community,

here in our part of the world, the middle east, we dont really get a chance to meet people in normal places, we have became dependent on meeting people from the internet sites like manjam profile, you even have people who are paying members of manjam and gaydar so that they have priority on to appear on the top of the whose online list or not to run out of messages (i am that kind of person). you reach a point where you meet a guy off there at least once a week, with the promise of a great fuck which sometimes turn to be that way while others just turn out a total bore.
however after a while which arab country you in you start noticing a trend, all of the men are complaining like me about the gaydar and manjam saying how much they hate it yet they still use it. we complain about how there is no one decent yet we ourselves are the ones who are looking for the one night stands, and not really ready to commit to date. we complain that on the first question with chat the guy always ask the the most horrible two question "size of your cock" and "top or bottom" ... and somehow everyone turns out to be a bottom no matter what people say (this is where you laugh) ... i guess what i am trying to say is that we are all alike more than 60% of the users online wants good decent dates, but it seems taht all 100% of them are complaining about that there doesnt exist, does that make any sense .... i mean i am man of science and logic and it doesnt make sense to me.

so where is the issue ... it is in us... it is in us claiming that we want something then doing something else. we claim we dates and we end up on night stands. at least i will be honest here thats true for me.... i have so far. i go on i am like guys i want dates and then almost always we go to coffee or they come over for a drink and no more than an hour naked and ass banging while sniffing poppers, i think my bed will be my witness. i justified this to myself by saying hey before i buy the car shall i not going it on a test drive, but usually the sex is good, its what is after the sex that is not good.

maybe i have it wrong i should be discovering the guys brains then trying the sex, i mean since almost most of the time the sex is good and i have a friend who told me the sex is so much better when you know the person well (that is my famous TIM, for new readers of the blog, thats the one guy that had the most effect on my life and that i am thankful and will forever love as my dearest friend and will always trust with anything)

so based on this assumption i am have decided following:
1. NO MORE SEX DATES
2. NO MORE ONE NIGHT STANDS
3. NOT GOING TO SLEEP WITH A GUY ON A FIRST DATE OR EVEN KISS
4. NOT GOING TO SLEEP WITH GUYS ON SECOND DATES
5. MAYBE ON THIRD DATES.
6. WONT SLEEP WITH A GUY UNLESS I AM SURE HE IS A PERSON THAT I COULD CONTINUE ON DATING
7. LESS ALCOHOL CONSUMPTIONS

whats the point of rule 3-6 well its simple, i want to give myself time before sleeping with the guy to get actually get to know because once sex happens the whole dynamics of the date changes, all you want to do is sleep more and more and more and you hardly give yourself time, so why not get to know the person before you actually get to know him, trust me i think i think if you meet a right person that mind orgasms you more than physical orgasm you will care more about getting more of the mind orgasm rather than the sex (at least i am going through something similar now, at least just from my side, okay i am confused but wahtever, i am always confused)

reason for rule 7 well we all love alcohol but i think i might getting a problem where i might start reaching a point of becoming an alcoholic so that will have to stop that i dont want to be an alcoholic, plus too much drinking leads to a unhealthy body and makes me do stupid things like end up confessing my love or end up sending 50 messages on manjam looking for a one night stand which will contridict point 3-6

so boys to sum up the reason why we all complain about manjam and gaydar with blatent slogan "what you want when you want" is not because of everyone else out in the world is crap, what is important is that we notice that we are part of this everyone else which means, its because we ourselves need to change ourselves. we all are part of this interconnected web. and we have to make with the best we have, as we dont have the luxury of meeting someone in the nieghbourhood bar easily or maybe we do in some bars you know which ones i am talking about.

so guys enjoy and lets hope that i can keep the new vows i kept to myself i never know and will keep you updated in next week's blog

Regards,
S.